Tag: reflection

My daughter becomes a writer


Last night I sat beside my daughter at the kitchen table has she did homework. Haley had to write an original story using her spelling words. She worked the pencil and finessed the spelling words into this cute little story about being a teenager ticket-taker at a roller coaster on the New Jersey boardwalk. She’s […]

The Danger of Not Telling Your Story


As a writer and a person with a degenerative brain condition, I often tumble into a state of what-will-they-say-about-me paranoia. A state where you hold your breath as you wrestle with the sinking feeling of eternal doom. What has helped me breathe and escape such doom is telling my story. I’ve learned that showing who […]

It was both funny and painful to watch. "Everything hurts."


Three days after the race and Cindy is walking as if she has a pair of wooden legs. “Everything hurts. My legs, my back, my ribs.” I stand at the kitchen sink and watch Cindy open the cabinet, reach for a glass, and wince. She draws a breath. “I should’ve trained for the race.” She […]

Health Update: It's a migraine but it's complicated


On Monday a neurologist diagnosed me with a lingering migraine. Dizziness, nausea, stabbing headaches, sensitivity to light are symptoms aligned with a migraine. This is the first time I have been diagnosed with a migraine. The neurologist ordered some blood work and issued prescriptions for a brain MRI to see if the cerebellum has further […]

The small moments have been the hardest The vertigo has been in my brain for 5 weeks


I’m lying on my back on the floor, staring at the ceiling, and I’m afraid to move. The vertigo has been in my brain for 5 weeks. And though symptoms have subsided enough for me to function, I still feel like I’m falling off a cliff every time I sit up or roll to my […]

September 11, 2001 What I remember...


I was in no immediate danger. Just a college senior, 100 miles away, sleeping his way through a philosophy of education class when the buildings exploded. Our old professor finally couldn’t find the words. He just pointed and said go and I found myself in a courtyard standing with the other faces in a loose […]

Training Session #44- July 25: Loss is growth


In 2013 I was diagnosed with sarcoidosis, an autoimmune disorder that chewed a hole in my cerebellum, atrophied various muscles, impaired my vision, balance, coordination and consequently stole my confidence and my ability to run. I have dedicated the summer of 2018 to regaining my strength, coordination, balance, and relearning how to run. I am participating […]

Training Session #23- June 27: Make the World Quiet and Small


In 2013 I was diagnosed with sarcoidosis, an autoimmune disorder that chewed a hole in my cerebellum, atrophied various muscles, impaired my vision, balance, coordination and consequently stole my ability to run. I have dedicated the summer of 2018 to regaining my strength, coordination, balance, and relearning how to run. I am participating in a 5k […]

Nobody Cares and Other Truths I Learned During My Two Years of Writing


This week marks two years of showing up, sitting down and writing–everyday. Some days I pumped out thousands of words. On others, I farted a few foul sentences and went about my day. But such is the writing life. When I first committed to writing, I held a secret position that green writers often hold– […]

Why You Should Clean Up Your House Before You Go On Vacation


It’s the day before our annual family vacation at the New Jersey shore and my wife is buzzing around the house doing chores. Vacuuming and cleaning out closets and dusting and hanging pictures we meant to hang last summer. Amidst this whirlwind of Windex, I’m on the couch watching Predator 2. Bill Paxson just met […]