Month: March 2019

I turn 39 this week and I’m out here counting breadcrumbs


I turn 39 on Saturday. A year ago, I wrote I turn 38 this week and I’m still lost.  I’m another year older, 12 months away from 40 and I’m still proud to admit I’m lost. Maybe not as lost as I was last year yet I’m still mildly lost. The GPS is now on […]

Dealing with doubt


This week I taught John Patrick Shanley’s 2008 play “Doubt”. If you’re not familiar, Netflix is currently streaming the film adaptation staring Philip Seymour Hoffman, Amy Adams, and Meryl Streep. It’s a fast, suspenseful masterpiece that will leave you, well–doubting. No surprise, with all the Doubt in my life this week–I found it difficult to […]

The morning after tragedy


I recently read screenwriter Eric Roth finished writing a sequel to Forrest Gump on September 10, 2001.  Then September 11th happened. After September 11th, Roth said the story just felt, “meaningless” and trashed the script. And we, the audience, were left forever imagining what could have been. I imagine Eric Roth woke up on the […]

Trying to answer the unanswerable questions


~This is a new post~ Five and a half years later and there are still a few pieces missing in my health puzzle. My doctors and I have checked under the table. Lifted the carpet. Felt between the couch cushions. And still nothing. I spent so much time, and energy, in the spring of my […]

Where are we going? (And what’s the hurry?)


~This is a new post~ It’s 7:15 am and I’m driving to work and the silver SUV behind me is riding my tail. In the rear view mirror, I see a women with bright red lipstick in the driver’s seat motioning for me to move out of her way. I can’t hear her but she’s […]

I’m thinking of you, Alex Trebek


~This is a new post~ Friday evening I watched a full episode of Jeorpardy!. I’ve always enjoyed the show (even unsuccessfully attempted an online tryout) but the show airs weekdays at 7 pm, a time I’m usually carting the kids of to some practice or game. My reason for tuning in was part curiosity, part […]

I was rejected


A few months ago I applied to present at a one-day conference for writers and teachers. Yesterday I received a rejection email. When I got to the second line, “Unfortunately…” I  deleted the email, blasting it into email oblivion as my mind shouted madman things: “Who are they to reject me?!” “They don’t know what […]

Let’s take it one step at a time this week


A good friend is doing something big this week. To honor their privacy I can’t reveal the specifics but my friend is taking a long-awaited, positive risk. A risk they have thought about and talked about for a long, long time. My good friend is nervous. And rightly so. They’re a little older now. A […]

Health Update: 8 Weeks of VRT


Thursday February 28th, concluded my 8th week of Vestibular Rehabilitation Therapy (VRT). It was also Rare Disease Awareness Day— a day to raise awareness for rare diseases all over the world. 8 weeks ago, I skeptically began VRT attempting to improve balance, coordination, and overall movement. Without surgery, could my brain really be fixed? To […]