Tag: vulnerability

The evening news is killing me.


California is still burning. Florida is still deciding The Mexicans are still hiding. And wherever you go to worship, a synagogue or a bar, you better look over your shoulder and know your exits. After being pummeled by the evening news this past week, I found it hard to hope. I mean, it seemed every […]

How serious am I about this writing stuff?


How serious am I about this writing stuff? When I got sick 5 years ago, and the prospect of death was suddenly real, I became obsessed with discovering my story. Who was I? What did I want to accomplish in life?  Can I find meaning in my suffering? Does my illness ostracize me or does […]

I’m hungover.


I’m hungover. Except I haven’t had a drink almost 3 months. My head is pounding and I’m dizzy and nauseous as if it was 1999 and last night I chased a bottle of strawberry Boone’s Farm with 10 Natty Lights. I stagger to the shower. Shower. Towel off. Get changed. Get coffee, started feeling sorry […]

The Danger of Not Telling Your Story


As a writer and a person with a degenerative brain condition, I often tumble into a state of what-will-they-say-about-me paranoia. A state where you hold your breath as you wrestle with the sinking feeling of eternal doom. What has helped me breathe and escape such doom is telling my story. I’ve learned that showing who […]

It was both funny and painful to watch. "Everything hurts."


Three days after the race and Cindy is walking as if she has a pair of wooden legs. “Everything hurts. My legs, my back, my ribs.” I stand at the kitchen sink and watch Cindy open the cabinet, reach for a glass, and wince. She draws a breath. “I should’ve trained for the race.” She […]

The small moments have been the hardest The vertigo has been in my brain for 5 weeks


I’m lying on my back on the floor, staring at the ceiling, and I’m afraid to move. The vertigo has been in my brain for 5 weeks. And though symptoms have subsided enough for me to function, I still feel like I’m falling off a cliff every time I sit up or roll to my […]

“Dad, why does summer go so fast?” ...and then there was 7 days of summer left


My 10 year old daughter, Haley, looks up from her iPad, sighs, and asks, “Dad, why does summer go so fast?” I laugh and say, ” Sweetie, I’ve been try to figure that out my whole life.” Maybe I’m getting older, but summer seems to pass quicker each year. If you’re like me, you started […]

Why is it so damn hard to take your own advice?


As a teacher, writer, and speaker I give advice. I offer students, readers, and listeners with solutions to the pickles of life. For the past 8 weeks I’ve been training to run a 5k in September. I’ve been telling you that if I overcome my sarcoidosis and brain damage you can certainly overcome your problems. […]

Why Men Don’t Talk A technique to get men to do something amazing


Society has conditioned men to dismiss any and all vulnerabilities. Since men identify vulnerability as a weakness, they often don’t possess the emotional strength to talk about their weaknesses. Male behavior that follows this script appeases societal expectations but how does this silence affect the individual male? The male who returns home from war. The […]

Do the heavy lifting first, kid A lesson from my father


Just as we develop our physical muscles through overcoming opposition – such as lifting weights – we develop our character muscles by overcoming challenges and adversity.– Stephen Covey As a teenager, I spent the summers working for my father’s business. Bell Pallet would remove and repair a company’s unwanted pallets for resale. It was dirty, […]